Have you ever had that feeling that something is about to happen? Maybe it's while watching a sporting event, and you can just tell that the momentum of the game is leading up to a spectacular play. It happens in movies, when the plot and the musical score have been building up. Sometimes it's as simple as watching your kids roughhouse, and being right about the exact moment that one of them starts to cry.
Much of this seems based on experience. We understand cause and effect. But what about when it comes to the workings of God? What makes us catch our breath and watch with anticipation for some event that we feel He is telling us is coming?
I have been having this feeling a lot lately. Partially because the Bible study I am in is changing the lives of women who need healing from their past. It is a joy and an honor to watch these women be set free from their guilt and shame, to hold their heads high and to finally fully understand Christ's sacrifice for our sin. Awesome! But it is also in my personal life. My youngest daughter's battle with cancer is not going the way I want it to. I have a feeling something is coming and I need to get ready. Not a running around crazy kind of ready, like when you've put off packing for a long trip until the night before your 6am flight leaves. More like I need to be still and listen to God, to read His Word. To ready my heart and mind. To rest in Him.
"Be strong and courageous."
"Be still and know that I am God."
Provider
Comforter
Counselor
Prince of Peace
Mighty God
Holy of Holies.
These are the verses and the names of God I hear. My heart is crying out to be filled with Him. And even though I am of course praying for healing for my daughter, I am still more overwhelmed with a sense of ME needing to be filled with HIM. I feel as though I need to do something--but that something still seems to be waiting wide-eyed at what God has planned.
As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, O God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When can I go and meet with God? Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God. Psalm 42: 1-2,5,6
